Hallucinations

Go read this excelent post at Tent Pegs. I had a similar experience today. OK, no trees were talking but I did get caught up in a Hallucination.

The house next door just sold and the new owners have been coming buy painting and making the house theirs. I hadn't had the chance to meet them yet, and this evening he and I were both out cutting grass. We nodded at each other out in the front yard, but when we both came around to the same corner of the rear I motioned at him and we both shut the mowers down and introduced ourselves.

They were moving from a town house across town, had a 1 year old boy, were originally from Akron, then Chicago before Columbus and were glad to have a house. hey had been beaten out on two other homes in the neighborhood before getting this one. At some point, I can't remember why, h mention he was planning to put up a fence. "Oh really, what type?" I asked. "Six foot."

Now when we moved into our home 5 years ago it came with a fence. A six foot privacy fence. I felt like I was in prison. Two or three summers ago we cut it down to size and spread the boards out so we now have a less restrictive 4 foot-ish open fence. So when my new neighbor tells me that he's putting up a six foot fence, I'm angry. My biggest fear was that the new owners would put up a privacy fence. Never mind that they might be ax murderers, cannibals or child molesters, they might erect a tall fence!

So, in my most loving and Christ like way I mentioned how we had just took our six foot fence down and, well, let's talk before he puts up his fence so we don't have two fences running together. Hard to control the weeds between. He was pleasant enough in reply and we went back to mowing.

As I continued on I kept thinking about that conversation. Here was a guy I hadn't known for longer than 5 minutes, a guy I'd have to live next door to for several years and I was already trying to set him straight on a fence. Worse yet, I'm an ambassador of Christ, and what does he see? A controlling, self focused, manipulator. Ouch.

When I read Patrick's post at tent pegs, I was even more convicted and ashamed. I had bought a hallucination that the fence was an important issue. More important than building a relationship of mutual trust and respect with my new neighbor. More important than demonstrating Jesus. I now have an uphill battle if I'm to really show him Jesus, up a hill of my own construction. I fully intend to apologize for my attitude in the hope that a little humility and contrition will help him see me as something other than a meddlesome neighbor.

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Good post. It makes me wonder about what I've been hallucinating about.

P.S. - Half way through MIL visit and things are going good. I have had to pray for a non-critical greatful heart. Thank you for your prayers.

Great post. Yeah it's hard to know when you're "hallucinating". It seems so bloody real.



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  • Great post. Yeah it's hard to know when you're "hallucinating". It seems so bloody real....

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  • Good post. It makes me wonder about what I've been hallucinating about. P.S. - Half way through MIL visit and things are going good. I have had to pray for a non-critical greatful heart. Thank you for your prayers....

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